Midnight Ramblings

My alarm will go off in less than 5 hours. At that time, I will try to stumble out of bed and get myself to the office by 7:30. I have to collect my client's file, as well as my witness, and get myself up to the courthouse by 10. The ride to court will suck, especially since have to entertain said witness in the car and can't listen to the music that will (somewhat) soothe my frayed nerves.

This is pretty much how I get before any trial. I can't sleep because I'm trying to mind-fuck the hell out of the case. Opposing counsel's arguments. My witness' testimony. Her possible cross-examination. Was there something else I could have done to prepare? Was there anything I may have overlooked? Did I forget to include a key piece of...anything...in my presentation?

At the end of the day, I know my case inside and out. There isn't a single argument, fact or implication I haven't considered, analyzed or figured out how to spin in my favor. No matter how hard the other side worked (and they have three attorneys on this one), they haven't - couldn't - outwork me. It's what makes me as good as I am at what I do.

But this one has me worried.

My head's not fully in the game. I don't let my personal life affect my work but this time the spill-over can't be contained. I'm too tired, too drained and it's left me too full of doubts.

So wish me luck. I may just need it this time.