one week down...

So I literally did nothing of consequence last week... I didn't wage any brilliant legal battles. There were no compelling briefs that I authored. I didn't settle any cases, large or small, or help creatively solve legal problems. I got back on my yoga mat. I cooked, made lunches for my kids. I got my son to practice on time. Got chided by a kid on a power trip for letting my youngest play on the playground at the older one's school. I started writing again, even if it was a few simple blog posts. Made pretzels for hours with the kids, while narrowly averting them killing each other for not wanting to share. I looked forward to 4:30 every day so I could pick the kiddos up and see them again. I read. Smiled. Laughed. And this morning as I was idly searching online, I may have found a job that actually interests me. But I'm not going to share any details about that yet... I need to see if anything materializes.

happy

2 weeks ago, an email changed my life... I made a mistake - but it's one that led me to quit my job. And for the first time in my life, I find myself without a job. I don't have to wake up in the morning, rush through getting the kids to school, run to court, slog through motions and write briefs in response. It's still a little weird. Especially since it's the first time in six years that I'm not working with my family. But weird as it is, I'm happy. Happier than I've been in a long time. I can wake up in the morning and NOT need to rush through getting the kids to school. When my oldest crawls into bed with me, wanting to cuddle and watch tv for a few minutes, I don't have to shoo him back to his room to get ready for the day. When my little guy comes running into the room, wanting to curl up in my lap for huggies, I can hold him until HE wants to go running off to play. I can do what I want with my day, whether it's writing or reading or just being a lump. I'm sure this will start driving me crazy by next week...doing nothing isn't something I can do well. But it also gives me time to figure out what I want my next step to be. The truth is, I have no idea right now what I want that to be. And for right now, that's okay...

It's been awhile...

It's been awhile since I've been on here. Lots of stuff has changed. New kid (he's 2 now). My oldest is the starting goalie of his travel hockey team. His rec team just won the championship game in a tournament. New job... I continue to struggle with trying to find some semblance of balance between work and being mom and having any time left over for myself. And, yeah, my writing mojo continues to be absent. Maybe one day it'll return. Hopefully I'll have something worthwhile to say soon and people still around to hear it.