happy

2 weeks ago, an email changed my life... I made a mistake - but it's one that led me to quit my job. And for the first time in my life, I find myself without a job. I don't have to wake up in the morning, rush through getting the kids to school, run to court, slog through motions and write briefs in response. It's still a little weird. Especially since it's the first time in six years that I'm not working with my family. But weird as it is, I'm happy. Happier than I've been in a long time. I can wake up in the morning and NOT need to rush through getting the kids to school. When my oldest crawls into bed with me, wanting to cuddle and watch tv for a few minutes, I don't have to shoo him back to his room to get ready for the day. When my little guy comes running into the room, wanting to curl up in my lap for huggies, I can hold him until HE wants to go running off to play. I can do what I want with my day, whether it's writing or reading or just being a lump. I'm sure this will start driving me crazy by next week...doing nothing isn't something I can do well. But it also gives me time to figure out what I want my next step to be. The truth is, I have no idea right now what I want that to be. And for right now, that's okay...