Tonight, I walked out the door of the office at 6:00. Despite it being a Friday, that's the usual quitting time, particularly when big brother is watching all our comings and goings. It was like any other night, except that my key ring felt slightly lighter in my hand.
I said goodbye to Matt as he was heading over to crossfit, which I take full credit for getting him addicted to. Instead of just telling me to have a good weekend, he gave me a hug, warned me I'd be getting lots of calls with stupid questions and said things wouldn't be the same without me. The guy's only been at the office a little over a year...but he knows what a loss this is.
I had people coming into my office all day, looking at me shyly - saying they're not supposed to know that I'm leaving but they're so sorry to see me go. That they have loved working with me. Learning from me.
My assistant literally ran out of the office at the end of the day to avoid getting too emotional. Deanna is a tough cookie and I rarely ever see her shaken.
I got all misty just thinking about saying goodbye to Jay. I've been his associate since day 1 at the office seven years ago. He's been my mentor. He and his wife were at my wedding. I was at his daughter's wedding. When he moves into his new house, he'll invite me over for the housewarming. The truth is, I don't know how either one of us got through saying goodbye without crying.
Despite all of this, it still doesn't feel completely real.
Waking up Monday morning is going to be something like waking up the day after the bar exam... You wake up late, freaking out because you overslept and have to hurry up and study. Then realization dawns that there's no more studying to do... Only then do you think to yourself "I don't have to study...what the hell do I do now?"
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Holy shit, woman! Where have I been? Obviously not reading your blog or keeping up with you!!! Holy shit! Ok, now I've gotta go back and read the last few posts... then I'll email you!
Aww that's hard. But it's the right move. Enjoy sleeping in.
Ms S: hey stranger. yeah, you missed a rough couple weeks. it still doesn't seem quite real.
SB: thanks. i needed to hear someone say that.
welcome to freedom jaime...know it was an emotional day but hey now you get to choose which ones you speak to eh?
You definitely needed a change. I hope that it works out well for you!
It's all good... and where have I been??? Everything happens for a reason... blah blah blah... you'll be OK in a few days and wonder why you didn't do it earlier... good luck!!!
Jaime, I had no idea. I had to read back and see what the heck was going on. It sounds like you did the right thing though. You definitely need to feel valued, because you have REAL value!
Will you strike out on your own now? My brother does that, and he loves being in control of his own destiny.
Whatever you decide, I just hope you will be happy!
so sorry you had to leave a job you loved. But there will be bigger and better things over the horizon with a place that will appreciate your talents.
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